I was told there would be glowing...

“I just wanted the glow. The one that they promise you on the cover of those magazines. Well, I’m calling it – pregnancy sucks. Making a human being is really hard. I have no control over my body or my emotions.” -Wendy from What to Expect When You’re Expecting

I love this quote because my first trimester was a huge kick in the teeth! I was so excited to be pregnant but had no idea what I was in for. People said I had a glow but I felt I had to explain that was from the grease off my skin. It was awful (thankfully it's now amazing 😄).

I had a few symptoms before I took a test and remember waking up very early one morning in January. I couldn't get back off to sleep and, although I was going to wait a few more days before taking one, decided to get up to do a test. I brought the test into the bedroom with me, put it on my bedside table and thought I'll go back to sleep and I won't look until I wake up. Not a chance. I picked it up not 2 minutes later expecting it to be negative but there it was, clear as day it said pregnant 1-2 weeks.

I think I stared at it in shock for around 2 minutes before thinking of ways to tell Cae. I thought it would be a nice surprise but then he rolled over in his sleep and told me to stop fidgeting so I kind of shoved it in his face with a big grin on mine. It was difficult not to tell anyone but we wanted to make sure everything was okay before announcing. We booked an early scan with this amazing little company and then it was just the wait.

How on earth no one twigged in those following weeks I'll never know. Some people must have had an inkling but didn't say anything. The nausea that used to sit in my stomach ALL DAY was unreal. I found myself wishing to be sick just to get rid of the feeling. And it's difficult to run through an office to the bathroom with no one noticing.

Bonus was I lost weight in the first trimester from being sick so much 😂definitely made up for that when it wore off though. Cravings set in around 7 weeks, all I wanted was pickled onion Monster Munch, salt and vinegar Pringles and fried egg whites covered in vinegar. Now I can't stomach the thought of it and I just want ice lollies.

Whatever the web tells you or family etc there is no cure for morning sickness. I tried everything and nothing worked. Little tip though, take your vitamins at night for the first weeks of pregnancy if your sickness is bad in the day.

It's amazing how different pregnancies can be. A friend in work is a few weeks further along than me and has been much worse off in the sickness department. No idea how she's done it but remember if it's something you're going through right now, it'll pass and it's worth it. You're growing a human, that's awesome!